Do You Love Me?
A posting on: ABDG Discussion Group -Anonymous

One day, I woke up early in the morning to watch the sunrise.
Ah, the beauty of God's creation is beyond description.
As I watched, I praised God for the beautiful work.
As I sat there, I felt the Lord's presence with me.

He asked me, "Do you love Me?"
I answered, "Of course God! You are my Lord!"

Then He asked, "If you were physically handicapped, would you still love me?"
I was perplexed. I looked down upon my arms, legs and the rest of my body and wondered how many things I wouldn't be able to do, the things I took for granted.
And I answered, "It would be tough Lord, but I would still love you."

Then the Lord said, "If you were blind, would you still love my creation?"
How could I love something without being able to see it?
Then I thought of all the blind people in the world
and how many of them still loved God and his creation.
So I answered, "Its hard to think of it, but I would still love you."

The Lord then asked me, "If you were deaf, would you still listen to my word?"
How could I listen to anything, being deaf?
Then I understand.Listening to God's word is not merely using our ears but our hearts.
I answered, "It would be tough but I would still listen to your words"

The Lord then asked, "If you were mute, would you still praise my Name?"
How could I praise without a voice?
Then it occured to me:God wants us to sing from our very heart and soul.
It never matters what we sound like.
So I answered, "Though I could not physically sing, I would still praise your Name."

And the Lord asked, "Do you really love me?"
With courage and a strong conviction, I answered boldly, "Yes Lord!
I love you because you are the one and true God!"
I thought that I had answered well, but God asked, "Then why do you sin?"
I answered, "Because I am only human, I am not perfect."

"Then why do in times of peace you stray the furthest?
And why only in times of trouble do you pray the earnest?"
No answer. Only tears.

The Lord continued: Why only pray at fellowships and retreats?
Why seek Me only in times of worship?
Why ask things so selfishly?
Why ask things so unfaithfully?
The tears continued to roll down my cheeks.

Why are you ashamed of Me?
Why are you not spreading the good news?
Why in times of presecution, you cry to others when I offer My shoulders to cry on?

Why make excuses when I give you opportunities to serve in My Name?
I tried to answer but there was no answer to give.

You are blessed with life.
I made you not throw this gift away.
I have blessed you with talents to serve Me, but you continue to turn away.
I have revealed My word to you, but you do not gain in knowledge.
I have spoken to you, but your ears were closed.
I have shown My blessings to you, but your eyes were turned away.
I have sent you servants, but you sat idly as they were pushed away.
I have heard your prayers and I have answered them all.
Do you truly love Me?

I could not answer. How could I?
I was embarrased beyond belief. I had no excuse.
What could I say to this?

When my heart had cried out, and the tears had flowed, I said,
"Please forgive me Lord. I am unworthy to be your servant."
The Lord answered, "That is My grace, my servant."
I asked, "Then why do you continue to forgive me?
Why do you love me so?

The Lord answered, "Because you are my creation.
I will never abandon you.
When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with you.
When you shout with joy, I will laugh with you.
When you are down, I will encourage you.
When you fall, I will raise you up.
When you are tired, I will carry you.
I will be with you till the end of the days and I will love you forever."

Never had I cried so hard before.
How could I have been so cold.
And for the first time, I truly prayed.